Ah, it’s Christmas. So let’s see what’s new… I scraped by with all B’s and one A, somehow. I’m not really even sure this is possible. In one class the only grades I got in the class were C’s. How odd.
Oh right, Christmas. I haven’t even got dressed yet. It’s too early. I think my brother comes here at 3 PM and it’s like 10 AM. It’s nice to be home though, that’s for sure. I just needed to get away. I don’t even care that I’m not partying all the time like last Christmas. It’s fun, just getting to sleep and eat and spend time with my family. Who would have thought I would actually say that when just a year and a half ago, I was the most eager person in the world to get away.
College is nice, but it’s also really frustrating. I wonder how a lot of people do it. I just want to shut out the world and sleep right now, but as soon as I’m back, it’s welcome to the grind all over again. I imagined, I think, that college would have been different from high school, and at first it seemed that way, but now I realize just how trivial almost everything is. It’s hard to be motivated, sometimes, that’s for sure. Literally every day it’s the same thing. You don’t learn anything — you memorize. Ask me what I learned in freshman year and I could probably only tell you the course number or a meaningless fact about something, probably not even pertaining to the course.
I really don’t know how people do the college life. It’s fun a lot of times, and you do get to meet new people, but you also have to live like a bum and be a slave to fruitless classes for a piece of paper. Perhaps I’ll learn to love it. Perhaps not. I think I would enjoy a job much more; something that is personal and meaningful, the way I expected school to be. Something with a purpose.