Back to Work

Emily and I at a club in Houston. I absolutely miss the stupid fun nights we used to have!

Well, leave was fun. I pretty much had a complete blast, but now it’s been a couple of weeks and I’m right back in the thick of it until May. May cannot come soon enough. Every day I wake up and wonder “What am I doing?” At night, I actually hate going to sleep because the thought of tomorrow sounds so awful and I want to avoid it at all costs. I have progressed to a point in between apathy and just existing.  Now, I know that might sound like a desperate sign of giving up, but I mainly am just trying to coast through to the end of this. Right now, if I failed out of the program and was re-rated, I would be happy. I would, however, be more happy if I made officer. Still working on that process, but as before the Navy, it’s a complicated one.

That said, I’ve been doing pretty overall. My grades are okay and I’m still making enough effort to get by, even if I don’t really care about what I’m learning right now. I really did need that leave to give me a break from this place, and it was everything I could have imagined. I got to see Emily, Lizz, and Logen in Midland; Stephanie, Christian, Jesse, Rob, and my aunt and uncle Cathy and Dennis in San Antonio; Kayla, Brennan, and Andi in Austin; Emily, Jason, Eleina, and Dee Dee in Houston; my relatives and my grandma in Dallas. I almost saw my middle school friend Pierce in Houston as well, but his girlfriend got bit by a rabid animal. That’ll happen. I even almost made it to a New Years Eve party to see Tully and the gang, but I missed that. Heard he broke his arm being hammered. Ouch.

HIGHWAY TO THE DANGER ZONE.

This weekend has been a needed relief too. I don’t know how I will string together my sanity to get through Power School, but I’d like to personally thank MLK for having a dream, so that I could sleep in and have a dream myself. I managed to just hang out and have a good time this weekend, not working too much, and seeing a little of the Charleston sights with (my boy) Kapoi. We hit up the USS Yorktown, which I have been wanting to do for a while. Pretty badass. We had planned to see Ft. Sumter but it was way too cold to deal with that ferry ride.

Today was just sleeping in and work, but tomorrow is another fun exam over things I don’t care about. About one or two exams a week every week until I get out of here. The only good thing is that I will have a good amount of padding points wise to scrape by. I already threw the honorman out of the window, so I’ll be shooting for passing. (I’m not just good, I’m good enough.)

I’ll try to keep updating this, but man, I really don’t do anything. I feel like the weeks blur by and it’s all a game about passing time. When you sleep as little as I do now, you’re never really awake and never really asleep.

22 March 2010

As usual, I’ve slacked off on updating this. I suppose it’s just because I’m busy or just not really caring. Not too much is new in my life, however. I suppose more than usual, though.

I’ve been searching for a job and this whole process is extremely frustrating. Employers treat potential employees like trash for the most part, canceling meetings and not showing up to them (the company in question is called CityVoice in San Antonio). It’s an annoying process and my hopes of getting something in San Antonio have pretty much been erased. I’m expanding my search to all across Texas (at least in major cities) and a few other places. I have something going on with Sam though, and that could really pan out — and Austin is the best location for that. Hopefully it will pan out because I really think Sam and I would do best on yacht being rich, but the market is crowded and it’s hard to bring an idea to reality. But I am hopeful and hope is really what can make or break an idea. We’ve got to keep pushing ahead.

Sam was taking care of the Gremlins while we chilled.

Also new in my life is a girlfriend, Stephanie, who is a really nice girl. She’s fun to hang out with and as weird as I am, which makes things a lot more compatible. I’m really not a girlfriend kind of guy so we’ll see where this goes. I’m currently happy, but I demand a certain amount of space and freedom which seems a little hard to get right now. That said, that’s coupled with all the things that are going on at school and in my personal life.

I’m continuing to work out, although I’ve hurt my left shoulder pretty badly and so I’ve had to relax my efforts. I will eventually get a giant ripped beast, or so I hope, but for right now I’ve got to take it easy for a few more weeks before I ramp up my weights. Of course, it’s hard to have a consistent work out schedule when I’m so busy with everything else. On top of it, Spring Break 2010 pretty much set me back two months. I haven’t drank and partied like that in a long time. It was certainly very fun to be there for SXSW and St. Patty’s, and I had a few of the best days of my college career. However, at the same time, it’s good to be back. I’m not really sure how anyone gets anything done in Austin; how do college students not drop out immediately? I don’t think I could handle doing that sort of thing unless it were my job! Somehow, we need to get paid to party…